For no reason whatsoever, I am up. I couldve gone to bed once my productivity began slipping, but instead, I popped a bag of popcorn and settled in to rewatch last weeks Pushing Daisies. I could iron. I could silkscreen. I could WORK. rather, I spent the afternoon catching up on RSS feeds and sending facebook messages. My productivity and motivation have gone to sh*t. I keep hoping a full time job will fix that but I can’t even motivate myself to look for one now. The iminent failure is frustrating. Persistence is difficult, as is the deviation from what is comfortable.